It is only in God that the mind can find perfect repose. The mind wants real equanimity, real love. This search of the mind is the cause of its restlessness. When it finds God, it has found what it seeks. If the mind finds something or someone that satisfies it for a moment, it will rest there calmly, but then move on again, because that resting place was not all that it searched for. Only God can hold the mind steady.
The mind has searched the entire outside world. It had sought out people, places, situations, wealth, fame, power, possessions and pleasure. But it always moves on in its restlessness. We are left in chaos, disappointment and depression. Our dissatisfaction only grows as we grasp for permanent satisfaction.
The blind man says, “I can’t see the light.” But the light exists, even if we do not see it. Our search has just not revealed it yet because it has remained a search in the wrong direction. This outward search for equanimity and real love causes us to become lost in desires and their attachment to outcomes. We are engulfed with resistance and aversion. We seethe in judgment and justification.
The mind becomes active, searching, when it is separate from the Self. This search, this restlessness of the mind separate from the Self, creates samsara. Samsara is worldly involvement and bondage to the cycle of birth and death. This self-grasping restlessness and this samsara are the search for God, but we seldom recognize what it is.
When we see the inner and outer world as our own Self, the mind has found what it sought. Now the mind finds equanimity and real love and rests in the supreme stillness. We recognize that everything is consciousness. This awareness is the Self. This Presence is God. It is all one without a second.