As we attempt to navigate the ups and downs of our lives, sometimes things fall apart and we hit a wall and have to let go – surrender to life unfolding. When we are at wits end, we seek refuge. Refuge requires humility and trust. This is not always easy because we tend to hold onto an attitude of control and self-righteousness. In these situations, we seek out the answers, the practical, most beneficial action to take. We want our doubts removed.
In these situations, we might see ourselves as weak. This is partly because we are righteous people and we want to serve and we want to be responsible, but find ourselves exhausted and spent. We truly want our action to be correct, helpful and successful. We term our incapacity a weakness because of integrity. When we question what is right, when we question if what we are doing is our dharma, we are in integrity. This is also because there are sometimes conflicting dharmas; ours, our family’s, our society’s. At some point we fall apart and release our control.
It is at this point we can become disciples and release control to God. This represents the beginning of a conscious spiritual path and the release of our limitations, our ego and our resistance. In order to enter a spiritual path consciously and advance on the spiritual path, we need to approach the teacher, God, and ask to be shown the way – to be taught. We submit ourselves as disciples to God. We surrender. It is at this point that we become open to receiving; receiving life’s wisdom.
When we are sick and go to receive an operation, if we think we are in charge, if we never stop trying to control and think and talk, the doctor can not operate and cure our disease. When we submit to the doctor, she is then capable of operating.
The highest knowledge can only be imparted to those willing to receive. This is in every field of life and especially true on a spiritual quest. Our willingness to receive is judged by our one-pointed attention to God. When we believe and trust that we will receive, it lowers our resistance and opens our heart to God. Resistance makes our evolution a very long, hard journey because, in resistance, we can not receive what God is giving. Surrender and the elimination of our resistance is not passive. It is a sincere commitment to our goal of enlightenment and the achievement of freedom.
An Opening To Receive
If we find ourselves at wits end, know that we are at an opening. What opening? Opening to receive. It is up to us to open our hands and receive. Most will clench their fists and become the victim or allow themselves to be crushed by circumstances. But when we see the opening and receive, the reservations we held will fall away and we will find freedom.
We must ask and answer honestly, “In the past 24 hours how much have we practiced the Presence of God?” This is all about attention. We have given many hours of our attention to our problems, to the material things in our life, to our relationships, to distraction. How much time have we given our attention to God, to merging into God’s Presence in meditation, to remembering God in the last 24 hours? We can not say we are trusting and surrendering and releasing to God when God is not the foremost object of our attention. When we give our attention to God, we open to receive what God wants to give. When God becomes the most important thing in our life and is first, then God acts through us, leading us to solutions, to abundance, peace, love and freedom.