Hide and Seek: The Power of Awareness
Chapter Twenty One
The Mystery of Surrender
Our ultimate aim, our very purpose in life is Self-knowledge. Every event that unfolds is orchestrated to serve as a catalyst for Self-remembrance. Life is grace, which is the power propelling us toward Self-realization. As we learn to perceive each moment, every individual, and each circumstance as embodiments of grace, life assumes a transformative perspective. It becomes a vessel holding but one treasure – the power to unveil our true Selves, our vast consciousness. Life is, in reality, a journey with a singular destination – the illumination that is Self-realization.
Ralph was a devoted family man. In his career as a scientist, he poured his heart and soul into his work, devoted to his research. Weekends were reserved for his passion for baseball, where he transformed into a devoted fan. Behind the wheel of his 1967 Corvette, he reveled in his love of automobiles and became a devoted car enthusiast.
Our lives are profoundly influenced by our devotion. We channel our energy, time, and attention into what holds our loyalty. As we do, these focal points assume prominence, amassing power, and monopolizing our attention.
Devotion encapsulates our love, loyalty, and enthusiasm, pinpointed towards a chosen pursuit. But how often do we direct our devotion inward? For most of us, this internal focus only emerges as a response to coping with or escaping from the tumultuous realm of our thoughts and emotions. How much of our time, energy, and attention do we genuinely invest in nurturing our inner peace and Self-realization?
Devotion acts as an amplifier, intensifying whatever it connects itself to. From an internal standpoint, many of us find ourselves devoted to fear, our problems, and the constructed identities we uphold. Where our devotion lies, our attention rests. Whatever garners our attention inevitably flourishes, be that baseball, problems, peace of mind or Self-awareness.
Could we, instead, devote ourselves to acceptance? Can we become devoted to cultivating inner peace as our guiding principle in thought and action? Is it possible to be devoted to committing ourselves to a state of mind that harbors true happiness? Can we become devoted to the happiness of others?
Surrender, often shrouded in fear and misunderstanding, holds within it a remarkable power and profound mystery. The majority tend to apprehend surrender as a diminishing act, fearing that it entails becoming subservient to another. However, the essence of surrender hinges on both who we surrender to and our comprehension of the surrender itself.
When we embark on the path of surrender, we shed a part of our constructed identities and merge with the entity to which we surrender. Surrender to consciousness begets unity with consciousness. We become what we surrender to. This act does entail relinquishing a portion of ourselves, specifically our ego and our sense of smallness, in exchange for our true Self and its vastness.
In our daily lives, we often unwittingly become devoted to various entities such as indulgence in parties, social media, entertainment, consumption of drugs and alcohol, excessive pleasure, and the relentless pull of worldly pursuits. In return, we relinquish our inner peace. Regrettably, we don’t hesitate to take the next step and surrender to our senses, cravings, or the incessant judgments and suspicions conjured by the monkey mind.
Such surrender inevitably results in bondage, fatigue, and constriction. Conversely, when we surrender to our authentic Self, we absorb the peace, the vastness, the love and the bliss of consciousness.
It is imperative to discern the object of our surrender. Surrendering to the highest equates to surrendering to pure awareness and its intelligence and energy, in essence, surrendering to our very own presence and consciousness. This presence and energy reside within us, concealed, and our surrender to them marks our most profound journey towards unveiling the inner depths. In surrendering to this intrinsic reality, we inherently reveal it.
Surrender is a potent means of opening ourselves to pure consciousness, thereby facilitating Self-discovery. As the shackles of separation gradually loosen, surrender becomes an increasingly accessible realm. By clutching onto our narrow sense of individuality, we inadvertently forego the opportunity to fully acknowledge the extent of our being, our consciousness, and our potential. We surrender our identification to whatever we embrace.
For some, surrender may seem an insurmountable task due to deep-seated feelings of unworthiness and self-unlovability. The journey towards surrender commences with Self-love and Self-compassion. It is only through these acts of Self-embrace and Self-acceptance that the idea of surrendering to one’s inner Self becomes tenable. In essence, surrender isn’t directed toward something new or external; it revolves around recognizing the consciousness within us. Surrender entails losing our small self within the vast expanse of consciousness residing within us, as us.
Surrender entails taking refuge in the universal love, compassion, and the grace of consciousness. It bears no relation to submitting to another human being or surrendering one’s power or autonomy to become subservient. Instead, it epitomizes acceptance – a welcoming embrace of the virtues of love, compassion, and grace. Surrender is synonymous with acceptance; it signifies a willingness to receive. The purer we are inside, the more we are capable of receiving.
In acceptance, when we surrender the fruits of our actions, we receive peace and lose our worries, negativities, anxieties and attachments. In understanding, when we surrender the misperception of identifying as a small, constructed identity, we receive the authentic Self.
To receive the boundless grace of consciousness, we must wholeheartedly surrender ourselves to it. By offering ourselves completely, we become receptive to the profound gifts it bestows. In this act of complete giving, we become recipients of love, compassion, and grace. As we realize these qualities and awaken to their presence within us, we transform into vessels of love and compassion ourselves. This surrender is only an awakening.
So, why does surrender often invoke fear? At its core, it stems from a lack of trust. Perhaps disappointment arose from surrendering to someone we loved, or maybe our prayers seemed to go unanswered. In these instances, we ought to place trust in ourselves. Trust must gradually develop, step by step. The demise of the ego represents our greatest fear, yet it is not truly a death; rather, it is the small, limited constructed identity that expands into the vastness of awareness.
When we worship in temples or churches, we do not bestow benefits upon the Divine; rather, we reap the rewards of love and contentment awakened by our worship. In surrendering to consciousness, we are, in truth, respecting and honoring ourselves and recognizing our own vast worth. We and consciousness are indistinguishable. Through meditation and surrender, we enable the small river of our individuality to merge with the boundless ocean, becoming the ocean itself. The ego of the wave becomes the Self that is the ocean of consciousness.